another day, another speech.

Happy Chinese New Year chicks ! :)

sorry I've been busy lately.
The winner of Esmod Ambassador is Rae Citra & she's worth all the fight !
she's so worth it I swear =)

I've been home for 2days then back again & have a fashion show at Jakarta Conventional Centre,
in Education Expo 2011.
sorry photos are in facebook.
I'm tired & lazy to upload :(
I'm not really in the mood. well, you guys might think I always in a bad mood.
but I always blog when I'm in a bad mood idk why :(

Time flies, people change, life goes on.
Nothing is perfect. Nothing Lasts forever.
Forever is bullshit.
all we can do is just treasure every moment before it's gone.
Lips tell lies - actions are prove - eyes speak the truth.
Shit happens, things go wrong, trap in mess.

whatever hurt you the most, will still feel hurts even it has passed in time.
some people say "The one you love the most is the one that will hurt you the most"
some people ask "what if every person I love always hurts me?"
I say "The one you love the most still the one that can always heal your pain & make your tears worth it with their presence no matter how much they hurt you"
I answer "nobody can guarantee not to hurt you or never will, in fact, everyone is a sinner, no one has never not hurting anyone, including you. so why think about the hurt, not the worth ?"

but I never ask you to keep holding on to the things that keep hurting you most.
I never ask you to leave the things that hurt you the most too.
we're all immature but we're also mature enough to think,
what's our treasure, does it worth it, can you live with/without it, or are you ready to sacrifice whatever things just to leave it/hold on ?
some things hurt permanently, yes, they brain-washed you, yes, they bound you,yes. hard to handle, yes.
traumatic things are the worst, it effects to your seconds to future.
sometimes we need to be brave than to be afraid,
but sometimes we need to be smart than to rewind the same stupid traumatic story in different version.

Find a person who love you, will take care of you & make you happy, instead of the person you love.
cause they will fight for you till' the end, they hear 'no' as a 'try again', they read 'sorry' as 'will be better', they see 'you' as 'the one'.
when you find one, you'll know they're worth it to be your 'right one'.
but you'll be most happy with the one you love eventhough they're not yours or even don't notice you at all. you will do anything just for this one. but will they do the same thing ?
yes, there're lots of such cases.
Everything is a choice to make.
you press the wrong button you will lost everything,
you step to the right side you're safe & secure.
Life is unfair & will never fair.
deal with it.

Take a risk or walk in green zone.
dare yourself or play safe.
what's your choice ?

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo