drama drama drama & drama.

Not in the mood.
I start to feel lazy to pick up phone calls or reply texts from my family.
Not because I hate them, well I love my family a lot.
Not to be a no manner girl,
but sometimes I'm feeling like wanna yell at them till' they shut their fucking mouth up.
oh please, drama drama drama & drama. so many drama, so sick and childish.

When a drama is over, there comes another issues.
I can pretend to be blind. I can pretend to be deaf. I can pretend to be dumb.
cause I don't wanna care, whatever they all say, do or talk about me, I don't care.
they make me laugh, cause I feel I have a childish character, & I realize they're more childish than me.
I realize they're just pathetic people who can't enjoy their own life, they never know what freedom are,
or to express themselves for what they are feels or not to mind other's business & make it their own burden looks like.
so why should I care?
but I'm still a human, I got my limitation, I have my bad-temper and selfishness.
I'm way too far than perfect or a nice one.
when I start to care and mind about these drama they make, I will just blow things up in my way.
& in the end I will be the bad-ass. well, whatever.

I do what I want, I walk in the path I choose, I dream what I like, I stay in society that I feel secure in.
I don't mind if I'm being the different one,
or maybe the only right brain while others are using their left brain,
or being a rebel or whatever.
I don't care if I have to walk alone in the path I choose,
I don't care if I have to keep receiving the teasing, meeting the dramas, deal with the complains & the take down and deal with not logical advices.
I'll stand up still, I maybe fall but I can still get up,
cause I got some people that I know I can hold on to when I'm fall.
I know where I can trust to run to and will never intend to ruin me.
I'll never give my world up AGAIN, even if the whole family forced me to.
they can talk about me whatever they want,
but I can lose my temper if they talk about my best-people and the people I respect.

wellwell, enough, I'm cooling down.
again & again, I start to talk random & useless things.
at least I pour out my emotion before it blows up.
besides this is my blog, my blog my rules.
who cares.
adios!