Humors & Rumors

Exhausted !
Don't really have anything to share.
things are going the same, just a boring routine, with some hot news that I always hate to hear.
uhh, I'm such a boring person huh?
well I'm kindda lazy to update stuffs these days idk why, just lazy.
But days are getting fun !

So, since I'm stuck with this post, just gonna upload this stupid annoying orange,my most favourite!
I always laugh at this, so silly !



& this happy tree friends, a bit' yucks but.. idk just found it funny.lol



& well, I know this is a very old song, I'm so not up to date.
but I'm not a fan of Enrique Iglesias, so I never listen to his songs,
& I know this song from my friend.. well, complicated, but the lyrics are.. melting but kindda' pathetic.lol
& I just love it!
perfect for my sleeping song in the car when stuck in traffic jam =p



& just going to share another electro song, still old song, but i haven't bored with it, well..not yet.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

#PrayForIndonesia & #GodBlessIndonesia

I think you all know what has happened in Indonesia yesterday.

Indonesia was hit by double disaster,

I know this is a natural disaster & I felt sorry for Indonesia,

but..

Please Indonesia, be smart.

People over countries have warn you for some time, but you ignore them, why?

There's two examples already, last Tsunami in Aceh & Earthquake in Padang, you still ignore their warnings.

I know you have your own believe & faith, but brain is so useful for this kind of matters.

It's just so sad, I'm not blaming anyone, but.. it's just really so sad ='(

God bless you Indonesia,

Everyone please pray for Indonesia !

These are some news about the double disaster in Indonesia :

So, this is the Volcano Eruption insident, watch till finish !  you can see the volcano & the people laughing out. wth is wrong with their head, laughing out the disaster? asshole.




My Prayer & Heart now goes to you Indonesia ='(
xxxo

I can't survive or be what I am now without them =)

I love all my best girl & boy friends !
They are my ohana, ohana means Family =)
Thank God I have them ♥

How the Story Goes

found this in my friend's fb.

I can't get my eyes out of the video!

Thumbs up !

uber cool, this one sure got story.

& below this is really hypnotizing, can make you high without drugs or weeds.

but I don't think everyone like this one, a bit... well.. but i like it.

October's Addiction before it comes to an end.

Nothing to do I'm so hell bored.

So I'll just share my addiction for this whole month,

but well, getting bored already.

& used as Victoria Secret Commercial.

so, what do you think?

I've played Baby Baby Baby idk for how many times in my itunes this whole month.

but well, getting bored already since I got a new addiction =p

Moody

Just got home,

I was sleeping over at dela's yesterday.

some hometown friends are here so we hang out a bit' =)

out of that, again so many things crossed my mind.

well, sometimes I'm tired of being me.

sometimes I'm tired of being understanding.

sometimes I'm tired of forgiving & giving chances to people.

sometimes I'm tired of listening to bullshits & believe it.

sometimes I'm tired of being nice to people I actually don't like.

sometimes I'm tired of being so naive.

sometimes I'm tired of being a thinker.

& sometimes I'm tired of being tired.

& I'm just too young to get tired since there're lots of people out there who would love to replace me,

so still, have to be me,

& always me,

I'm not good at being someone else either.

just let everything flows. uhh.

Not in a good mood.

=(

*kissonthelips*

Lovess

xoxo

Against all odds

Chilling infront of my laptop,

listen to my itunes with zillion things in my mind.

I wanna speak out but just couldn't.

I'm out of words of something. but just forget it.

I'm grateful for every little thing I have..

I know I often complains,

but I really really grateful.I really am. Thank God.

there are uncountable people out there who will to do anything just to be in my place.

It hurts so bad just to see some of 'em suffer so much.

I could cry till' insane if I see all of 'em, there're so much things I haven't know & see yet.

but tears couldn't help, right?

I won't dare to laugh or humiliate the poor, abandoned & sick people,

because I know, if I were in their positions, I wouldn't be that strong to live just to see & let people mock me everyday.

Just be grateful in everything.

you just don't know how 'much' people are dying just to be in your position.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Damn! I love this.

OH MY GOD !

my friend just suggested me this,

& I totally crazy about it !

I LOVE IT !

I love the VIDEO, i love the song, I love her style !

Lullaby

Good night everyone,

I got two songs to accompany you to sleep =)

currently my fave !

this is for Jazz/Blues Lovers :

I love her voice very much !

she's really multi-talented.

she's pretty, a french model, she plays guitar, & she can sing =)

& for your sleeping pills,

the lyrics are just sooooooo saaaaddddd.

lyrics :

"happy song"

some day, it will come

but i'm not there

you'll be a happy one

when i'm no more here

your friend knows the route

you meet up in rhymes

thank god

i'll make a happy song that you can play

and tell your lovely ones

who i had been

just think of all you love

and feel it is here

cause we are

look up off the ground

don't feel so bad

put off nights make-up

and see who's there

your friend, he knows the route

for all keys to find

light up.

Manipulation

So It's 20.10.2010 huh?

perfect date but still the same boring days.

attached to flu again, can't breathe, uhh.

am so going to have my massage & body treatment today,

never have it for like ages ! i need one.

& gonna have sushi for dinner tonight =)

World is such a weirdo.

It contains perfect chaos, It contains peaceful nature.

Like I always say,

Life is brutal.

we are all victims, but we're all the sinners as well.

you can control things,

without you realize you are a puppet too, controlled by others.

everything is a mind manipulation.

when you get bored you want to do something insane, out of box things.

when you get too far you want to undo things, being regret.

everyone is a machine of satisfaction.

when you have straight hair you want a wavy/curly hair,

when you have wavy/curly hair, you want a straight hair.

when you have golds, you always look for diamonds,

when you get the diamonds, you look for something bigger than that.

Noone can really satisfied, cause it's just never enough.

Human wants more & more & more,

till they reach a point that they've lost everything,

& should start all over again to get what they already had.

stupid? indeed. fool? indeed.

regret comes later.

but back to my older older posts,

Why is there misery & pain ?

-> Without misery & pain, how can you know & appreciate happiness ..?

Why does lost exist ?

-> Without the lost how can you appreciate & treasure what you have now ?

Dejavu?

yeah i wrote that long time ago.

Just.. don't let go your treasure (someone or something percious) just for your sake of looking for the better one.

people always say look for a better one & you'll find the right one.

tell you what, just don't do that.

cause you might have the best one now, you might find one already,

but you let go of 'em, it means you're stupid.

but I never say not to let go everything,

cause I know sometimes you should let go things that's going to kill you slowly.

it's people's choice,

what's your choice?

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Follow the Flows

There are things we couldn't express,

not even share it, not even mention,

not even describe, not even keep it.

Everything has its own beauty,

Everyone has his/her own lil' secret,

Every mind has its own problem,

Every heart has its own taste.

Sometimes, we need to let things flows by themselves,

sometimes it's better not to know or to ask,

not to make it clear or blur,

just let it flows & let it be,

until we reach a certain point,

& we'll find out the answers.

Sometimes mouth doesn't speak,

but heart does feel.

Sometimes mind keeps silence,

but tears shows everything.

Sometimes acts deny,

but eyes doesn't.

Sometimes you couldn't feel anything, numb.

Sometimes you feel everything too much, till you forget yourself.

People come & go,

In the end,

we'll know who will stay in our life 'till the end,

& never leave.

So just let everything flows.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess

xoxo

Boring Boring Boring. skip it.

Sunday afternoon,

lying down while focus to my laptop,

just browsing around,

boring.

not going anywhere today,

flu+sore throat+ulcer hurts+a bit of cough+dizzy suck.

consume some vitamins,

boring.

addicted by a french song,

Make The Girls Dance - Baby Baby Baby

can't stop repeating it,

boring.

nothing to share,

just typing this useless post,

trying to kill some boredom alone,

boring.

wondering why am not a homey girl,

can't stay at home for too long,

except feeling unwell or sick,

feeling like nobody's alive,

boring.

thinking of why am so sensitive,

easy to laugh easy to burst out of tears easy to hurt easy to be hurt,

i used to be a very patient nice girl,

idk why am changing to this kind of bitch.

boring.

ending this boring post.

going to take my shower & do something else.

boring.

-random minds of mine-

Heavy Eyes

SUPER EXHAUSTED !!

Not enough sleep for days & just submit my projects this afternoon. so relief !!

I'm free from fashion design projects till next thursday ! yeayy!

& went to Fiori first fashion show, celebrating their 6th birthday, & saw my seniors are being finalists & having their competition & won =) proud !

But no comment for the celebration, totally sucks.

I'm not being mean or rude, but it's true, I swear.. it's.. awful, so not a classy event for a magazine. --"

Imagine it celebrating the birthday of the magazine + the owner's wedding anniversary, I was like.. okay, what the hell is this..?! --"

But overall I'm enjoying everything in my life =)

Sorry, still got no photos, since the only photo is at dela's.

anw, found me in fiori's catalogue, but I guess the magazine crew re-edited 'em,

look so fugly, thoughts?

so lazy to wake up early for Jakarta Fashion Week 2010 job interview tomorrow ='(

anw, JFW is only next month !

+ Esmod St.Chaterine's Day, open house,small fashion show, discovery & party !

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Sickness is what I never aim for

I hate for being sick in the middle of damn projects.

really, I don't wanna be sick, it sucks.

it nice if there's someone look after you & just being spoiled,

but it's not when nobody cares & not there when you need 'em.

well, but not that bad, since I don't even care.

whatever happen, happens.

no one knows what will happen in the next second right?

can't be in sorrow or despair in such a long time, it's just like period,

you can moan of pain in some time, you used to it, & forget it, back to your activities.

Geez, I got a lot sketches to do but I haven't do any,

wanna start it now but I'm stucked in this painful intestine infection. darn!

anw, just got email from darius, 2 photos attachment :

Wadrobe by March Avenue

Wadrobe by darius personal.

Not actually a shoot, just for fun.

& don't think i'm that pretty, it's the magic of photography & photoshop.lol

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Hey Boredom

Everything is just so boring ...

Chill

So here I am, chilling at Dante Coffee,

researching my press review.

I'm so hell bored, today is so grey for me.

& I'm uber shocked to hear a news, about a psycho.

omg, I really Thank God for not falling into the trap, or Idk what'll happen to me.

This psycho is really sick.

can't even describe, just so speechless. nuts people.

But nvm, karma rolls, & I bet there's a time for this psycho's karma.

I don't even think this psycho is a human. Human can think, but this psycho couldn't.

So, let's talk other things.

anyone needs a daily outfits ?

Here are some products of March Avenue belongs to my lovely senior.

Sorry for the bad quality because they aren't the real files, they're over compressed.

For Further information, add the facebook, click --> March Avenue

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Boring people

It's been a while since my last blog.

I'm so busy with projects & got several issues.

Besides, I don't even know what to blog, my business ?

well I know my blog is a boring type of blog already.

I had a shoot with Darius Manihuruk last sunday,

he's one of a talented photographer, perharps fashion photographer in Indonesia,

not only that, he has been cover in the whole Asia photography.

Well, it's only a simple shoot which I were invited by my seniors to help him with his 2session of high fashion shoot,

then ended with my super simple catalogue ready to wear shoot by my senior.

kindda' nervous situation, since I'm not even a model,

& there're bunch of professional models out there are waiting & hoping to work with him.

This is not his photo anw.lol

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Disgust of Despair

Sometimes,

I can only feel my own feet in this universe.

I can see crowds, hear them talking, listen to their thoughts,

but sometimes i can hear silence more than the crowds.

It's not I'm such a lonely freak or pathetic bitch, No, of course not.

I can be included as a happy one from zillions of pathetic people in the world. I'm grateful.

I get opportunities that others couldn't get, sometimes I just got the luck.

But when night comes & when I'm lying on my bed,

my thoughts are in nowhere but those hurtful world that burst me out into tears.

& issues come, thinking some people that their blood is running in me, blame me for everything & only care about their other blood, which is not me.

& I remember this quote :

"when you feel to be the most pathetic, awful, pity, & madly sad person in the whole world, you need to see, how so many, no,how uncountable people out there dying & suffering just to be in your position. When you see them, you'll be ashamed."

-Random minds of mine-

One in a million

So today I accompanied & help chai for her despair doll photoshoot, by my senior.

of course i'm not in the frame =D

sometimes I'm happy to be in the behind of the scene.lol

So, here are some behind the scene that I took from my phone,

sorry about the bad quality.lol

I got a very surprising surprise last night..

& I just don't know what to say, couldn't think,

just sad.. but true.

anw, my eyes attracted by a quotes from my senior's friend fb:

"don't let somebody else create you, because once they do, they can totally destroy you."

sometimes I'm scared to trust someone,

because most of people have 'bullshit' as their middle name.

& there's another quote that catch my attention :

"as time goes by, you'll know who's the one who gonna fight for you no matter what, in any condition & situation, or the rest who're just mumbling & shitting around."

I'm looking for that 'one', just haven't found one yet.

there are too many the 'rest'.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo