Sophisticated

Drown into fashion design projects,

chilling at dixie again doing my fashion illustrations from collage.

Nothing to share since I'm kindda' busy lately.

& today is not really my day.

Got many bad things happened today.

anw, these are from the previous shoot for my senior's fashion design magazine competition, that were taken by my other senior that has graduated & officially got the designer title =)

she is multi-talented, designer & photographer =)

The first photo is casual wear for woman,

& second one is office wear.

he called it fashion casual & office wear for woman around 20-30 years old.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Back to ages ago

Don't have classes today,

woke up at noon accompanied by heavy rain & some creepy storms somehow distract my mood.

anw, chilling at dixie yesterday, totally being nice chicks,

with innocent looks.

feeling a bit' funny.like long long time ago before we're contaminated.lol

anw,

Stopped by a photo, & I love the make up in this photoshoot.

But I don't think, will be good in asian's face.

This chick has the bone & pretty eyes, of course this make up suits her.

Thoughts?

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Lifestyle

Dizzy Lizzy, massive headache.

yeah, slept at 5.30am & woke up at 1pm.

Dellany is sleeping over at my place, so we couldn't hold ourselves from chit chatting & sharing all night long =D

but now we felt so sleepy & dizzy.

Random photos from yesterday.

went to Senayan City.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Sand Animation

Watch this !

My gawddddd, there're so many talented people in the world.

Envy 'em !

If you understand the story, you would definitely cry !

I drop my tears for this :( so sad.. ;'(

If don't, just enjoy the art ! =)

Endless Progress

I'm super exhausted, such a long day.

Had a dinner & movie with some fashion students after a tiring uni.

Got another projects & they are just.. tons. ggahhh !

But I really enjoy this class, honestly I love the teacher ! she is so kind! I'm motivated.

She surely knows how to teach.

So, tomorrow's shoot has been cancelled due to some issues.

& got a new schedule with a sudden appointment express shoot on Sunday.

Helping one of my senior for his competition, he said it will be in catalog ? i don't know.

so not confident, since I'm not a model at all.

don't have the face, body proportions, height, & sense of model.

not even wanna be a real model, just not really my thing.

afraid to dissapoint people.

Don't have much to share but,

I just saw video posted by some art students in fb.

for ART LOVERS, MUST WATCH cause it's AWESOME !

ENJOY !

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Good Advice, Slap you in the heart.

Just walked by my friend's blog, Christine Laifa, & like her blog.

simple, but you'll get something.

& I saw this post & I totally loves it !

gonna slap some of the reader's heart, well, including me,

who loves to complain & never can handle footwears. =p

so, this is it !

"You won't realize how lucky you are until you see the less fortunate people."

you'll stop whining for shoes when

you see people who are paralyzed

you'll be the nicest girl in the world when

you know how it feels being bullied"

can't deny this simple & very short post is so worth it to read.

not feeling anything? such a stone.

at least you feel something eventhough your life is just fine. appreciate it.

So, just got home & bought bunch of junk foods, snacks.

Day II as a 2nd year of fashion student, gotta' do projects. dammit'!

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Name it Poison Ivy

I guess I'm in food poisoned, but rather called it Poison Ivy.
no connection, I know.
I've lost my nerves.
Feeling so passed out. no more strength.
would be lovely to be taken care, ohh..how I wish.
but here I am all alone, locked myself in this tiny messy bedroom.
not even take care of myself. whatever. I don't care.
massive headache. feeling like wanna blow up my mind.
I'm such a ham. not even a ham. prefer to be a flower but turns out to be a poison ivy.
in the first step to lose my voice, have no idea why since am not even screaming to anyone.

simply in love. yeahh, in love, with Electro-Glam.
well I always love Electro, even my surroundings are not really into it.
okay! I listen to all songs, got many favourites genre,
but currently in electro mood.
So Electro Bitches, suggest me your weapons ! im still searching for mind-blowing songs.
can't wait for sohodolls to release their album this year. wait it like forever already. darn.

anyway this is my hot song in September :
Millionaires - Party like a Millionaire. It's more to Electro Pop.

"Millionaire, Bitches"

"I do what I want, middle finger in the air

Gonna party party party like a millionaire

Imma dance like a slut, and I don't even care".

Wonder what's hot in October.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Lookbook : Where Logic Doesn't Exist

welcome to hell. no need to read this.

First Day of uni, kindda' tiring.

Just got home & been busy for a while.

Really gonna be in real hell soon, fashion hell, with lotsa' projects, till I'm out of control.

Another Random post,

no need to read this cause' this post just going to waste your time.

I don't know why I'm so frustrated these days, about myself.

feeling so depressed lately.

I don't even know what's going on with me.

I just.. stressed up, fucked up, messed up my mind.

Lack of self-esteem, feeling so horrible, & feeling like everything I do is just.. lost. you know ?

Nothing seems right.

I'm so going nuts. I'm out of my mind.

Mental Disorder.

But out of that, I should be grateful.

Idk, just feeling that so many people care about me =)

some concern about me, some always ask how i'm doing, some just care about me, some just make sure i'm fine, & especially my gorgeous chicks who'll be there for me anytime.

I should be grateful, there're always people around me when I'm in the lowest ground of mind.

Whenever I'm alone, there's always someone or more.

I should be grateful.

I know I'm too spoiled, I'm still a daddy's little girl who cries a lot or not as tough as others,

I've tried my best but there's always flaws in there.

& I'm just lost. I'm confused.

like now, getting lost & confused about what I'm writing here.

Fashion Projects will be full loaded soon, will be tons & rude.

I should be ready, but the fact I'm still not ready, with this mental confusion.

with this mental trouble. mental madness.

still got 2 photoshoots appointments on this Saturday & next Saturday.

after this 2 weeks I guess I'll vacuum from shoot world for projects.

can't handle too many works.

I just don't know why my mind is so fucked up.

Just.. wish me the best.

I don't want to lose myself.

-Random minds of mine -

Draggin' up

I'm back to normal !

just got some self issues in the previous post.

don't mind it !

Dying of boredom I swear.

Lack of self-esteem anyway..

idk what will happen in tomorrow's shoot, in the same place.

I feel so fucking ugly. I know I'm so imperfect, but can I be near perfect please, God ?

T_____________T

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Bad Bitch

Sometimes..

I just hate myself.

It's me, It's always been me.

Imma' troublemaker & Imma' killer.

Don't stay near to me.

I'm gonna hurt people.

Bangs Grow

Nothing much to say.

Just had my lunch at sushitei then hang out for couple hours,

& now I'm back to my bedroom & lying infront of this laptop.

Boring.

Life is such a chore.

well, gotta get change & go out with relatives since bro & mom are in town.

Gonna have another family dinner tonight. chaoo chicks !

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Letter to confusion. skip this post, not important.

No need to read this.

This is just a random post.

I'll drag you to the same boredom.

It's kindda' long, not important, & just random.

This is just another random minds of mine.

I'm so bored. bored to hell.
have no idea what to do.
Bought tons of dvd last month but left 'em in hometown.

I think I really got a mental problem.
Sometimes I feel like fighting with my own mind.
sometimes I think all day long without any results.
sometimes I feel like my mind has stop for hours when I realize I think on nothing realistic for hours.
sometimes I feel like arguing with my other me, my own mind.
sometimes I feel like a mad-damn girl.
sometimes I feel like angry, sad, & screaming but I just stand still, confused with myself.
sometimes I wonder what's wrong with myself.
sometimes I can't control myself, my feelings, & my emotion.
Is it my mental problem or I got a selfish emotion ?
consider me as a quite a normal looking mental patient?

I'm so bored.
my mind is flying away & have a walk to nowhere.
a space between reality & imagination & empty space.

Don't scare me or scared of me.
cause' I don't really remember this when everything back to normal.
I only type this in confusion, in empty space.
not sure what I'm typing.
I wanna be more realistic.
I realize world is so cruel & brutal, full of deceive & lies.
People come & go, they always rush, they always late.
they always try to forget, they always try to remember.
they always regret. they always move on. they always stuck in a place.

they always find a way. they always lost.

What comes around, goes around.

Maybe that's human race.

never enough, the more they gain, the more lonely it is but they still want more & more & more.

why don't they just appreciate & treasure what they have ?

till' they lost everything & should struggle from the beginning to get what they already have.

Stupid? Fool? Indeed.

Maybe that's human race.

No one really understands, no one really knows, no one really satisfied.

& no one stays the same.

-Random minds of mine-

Lookbook

Frozen Summer

It's 2am here, just gonna blog for a while before hit my bed.

Just got home around 30 minutes ago, clean up & currently sitting infront of my laptop.

feeling so exhausted, just got a simple shoot today, supposed to be in around lunch time but turned out to almost sunset, since it's raining like mad-ghost, big storm, foggy, & just creepy.

I got wet in the end & It's freezing & I was like.. shaking & mumbling.

but it was a very quick shoot & only took a few frames till' the sun passed out.

& got some polaroid photos in the spot, taken by Christine Chai, who's also the make up artist of today's simple quick shoot.

I was a short-hair lady today except in the last frame.

what do you think..?

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo

Behind the head

Lying on my bed.
Cuddling under my blanket.
Typing this useless craps.
Thinking nothing.
Just keep typing.

Browse about some ironic stuffs in the internet.
bored.
Lazy to reply texts & chats.
Listening to some old songs.
Drowning in this boredom.

Missing some moments.
Recall some memories.
Confused of how I could live & have lived for 19 years.
Running in circles.
Full loaded mind.
Everything is just bumping around.
Still bored.

Thinking to be in somewhere else.
Imagine if everything perfect.
But perfect doesn't exist.
but perfect is boring.
But too imperfect sucks.
Still typing shits.
Should stop now.

Hoping good things to happen.

-Random minds of mine-

Buzz the Frames

What a lousy day.

Just gonna share some random photos from sg, my face looks like shit.

For complete album just check it out on Christine Chai's facebook album.

I was too epic in that album, guess everyone who sees it will puke out. whatever I don't care.lol

super hate my bangs. gross !

Love my two girls : Christine Chai & Felia Purnawan :)

& wish my bangs grow longer ASAP. I hate it.

*kissonthelips*

Lovess,

xoxo